Then, on the heels of that, and just in time for Mother's Day, Shane came back into my life. After nearly 32 years, the baby I placed for adoption and I reconnected. Out of all that hurt and pain, bloomed a Garden of Love.
Who am I now??? Mother of two! Mother of a son. A son who is now a man. A man with a wife and two kids! OMG, I'm a grandmother, twice over!!! I'm Aunt Granny!!
I'm still trying to digest the idea that I do deserve this, if it was any of my friends, I would absolutely believe they deserved it, so it must be true for me too. In gratitude, I surrender to the enormity of the gift. I can't believe this much love has come into my life. And from the most unbelievable of places, from the child I abandoned with barely a thought. Not that I haven't thought about him since then. I've thought about him a million times, but I could not even think about "him," only I could think about "it," or, "the baby." A closed adoption means closed, particularly it is closed for the birth mother, protecting the child and the adopting parents mostly.
But never mind that, we found each other! And I've been invited into his life with wide open arms, and I'm there. I love him, his wife-my lovely and delightful daughter-in-law, and my two amazing, brilliant, and gorgeous grandchildren.
And I'm looking forward with great joy to the time when I can visit with Shane and Stephanie at the same time!!!
Goddess is good,
In gratitude I surrender to love:)
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| Shane and me, reconnected |
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